Hold me (a re-post from Malakai's Pages)

My operation is coming up. Needless to say I am scared shit of what can and can’t happen. People around me stays positive (for a moment there I had thought the glob that’s grown in my brain will miraculously disappear in my second MRI today — it did not!).

But what would really help, is two extra hands holding mine throughout the operation –one for my husband, one for my son, the two extra for my Dad and bestfriend who’s both given me strength through all I’ve gone through.
On Tuesday afternoon, I’d like to be a computer and get switched off until Friday night when the whole ordeal is done.

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